oh the places you'll go

i am in a whirl wind of change and questions in my life right now and the above picture

(which is a title of a book) explains how i fell right now with pregnancy, photography, and personal goals. i am getting sucked into the "just waiting" stage of Dr. Seuss' --"oh the places you will go."-- time for some refocus and some drive.

let me just address the area of personal goals. i am sad i cannot stay on top NOR have i stayed on top of my new years resolutions, this is in part because i am pregnant and NOT superwoman. however i will stay on coarse with being healthy and for the next four months of my pregnancy -- that means exercising when i can regularly (even if its just walking my dogs). cooking ALL THE TIME at home (yummy). looking forward to the winter when i will learn how to ski. STOP SPENDING!

next on the list to address is my photography. i am overwhelmed with ideas for change and things i need to be doing and what am i doing . . . NOTHING! who am i, what is this person of "waiting" i have become!!! the wheels have started to turn again (right? i am addressing the issues and VOWING to start moving right now). i am going to start reading more (get informed - be inspired). reach out more, including my vision for alohomora. STOP PROCRASTINATING! (i do this with all of my clients. i give them a set time for when they should expect to see their pictures, which is usually a week sometimes longer depending on the shoot, and i ALWAYS TAKE THE ENTIRE TIME! why not push myself, surprise my clients, over achieve!) reach out and help others. ( i want to share ideas more, inspire more, ask for help more, network more, more, more, more)

get to know and understand my new lab better! finish my to dos (and work on not having any to dos!) THINK! (meditate)

stay organized (use the filing system you have so fabulously put together to its fullest potential!) DO before and afters once a week. LASTLY and oh so important - make sure everything i do is a reflection of who i am.

the last focus would be this whole pregnancy thing :)

i have obviously realized how selfish i am since i got pregnant. my pregnancy has really been a blessed one comparatively (i need to be grateful that i was able to get pregnant for starters!) however if you were to ask me any day of the week if i like being pregnant i would tell you no. why? because i can't exercise the way i used to. i can't lift all the UBER heavy things i could before to prove to jeremy how strong i am. you get fat, i have gained 25 lbs. we don't have all the money in the world to make my nursery BOMB DOT COM how i have envisioned . . . come on, look at all of these reedonkulous reasons i am giving you.

truth be told. i don't like being pregnant. it limits me. i am selfish.

i am so excited to have a baby however. i hope and pray that as i continue to think about this little boy inside of me that my focus will switch and move more towards him and less on me!

until next time . . . .

lots to think about. lots to do. lots to change!