i know, this might not make sense. . . but its weird how your views change as you get older, get married, and have babies.
when i was young it was all about moving to san francisco and opening up a studio. seriously. i sketched out this vision one time and i can still see all the details down to the swinging rod iron sign hanging above the studio. do i want that now. no. and that seems weird to me. did i think i wanted to live in utah county as a young girl, no. but i am here. does the thought of moving to southern utah county like spanish fork or maybe somewhere like ophir sound some what appealing to me now, yes.
more and more i hear about kids in high school doing drugs and the availability of these items. all the drugs, alcohol, nicotine . . . that stuff costs money.
so, my thoughts have gone from big booming business in the city to poor small ranch.
thats right people. if i were a rich man i think i would stress about my kids more. i would give them an allowance, spoil them, and who knows what they would get themselves into. but maybe if i am a poor man . . . then they would HAVE to learn how to be hard workers. they wouldn't have idle time because they would have to work hard, earn money themselves, be extra hands on the ranch, mow the lawn because i couldn't pay someone to do it . . .
i don't know.
raising kids in todays world. probably not ideal.
can i do it. i think so. especially if there is a po-dunk town involved and i am poor!
