Friday, July 16, 2010

not a good night

i can't help feeling like i should have done something different to protect cash.
maybe i shouldn't have taken him to the pool
or church
or . . .
we were in the ER last night until 3am with him

i know i don't get THIS personal on my blog very often
but today
i am tired

cash is having difficulty breathing right now
even with two different breathing treatments he is struggling
his oxygen levels are okay
lungs are clear of pneumonia
but he is miserable, wheezy, struggling
and there is nothing that is helping him

i am sure it will pass and he will be fine
but for the time
i am worried
and can't help but feel responsible
and helpless